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I Am A Victim Of Sexual Assault. | MyLifeAsEva
I didn’t say yes or no, pushed him away. Tried not letting him kiss me on my mouth, he didn’t rape me, he touched me a lot, I froze down and I tried to remove his hands and I knew he couldn’t stay for long. I just let him do it, so he wouldn’t force me down or rape me. After leaving I didn’t know what to do or say, I felt so ashamed and I kept pushing him away but he didn’t get it. I felt like I just put myself into that situation, and I allowed him to because I was so afraid of saying no in fear that he would so something. I just feel ashamed and I don’t know if this even counts, I didn’t say no, I didn’t say anything and I regret it. I started bawling my eyes out after and I still replay it all over again.
I don't care how late this is, anyone who is a survivor of sexual assault, I am here for you. I hope that you can overcome your struggles, remember things WILL get better. I have never experienced this, so all I can say is please speak to someone, get it off your mind.
This is the story of my life. This is not based on sexual harassment....
So when I was still a kid my whole life up until I was 7 was AMAZING I had my dog (swiper) my cat (boots and my brothers my dad and my mum! When I was out at my friends one day in her pool, my brother come in and said I had to go home he told me mum was crying but not to tell her he had told me. So I went in and grabbed a towel to dry off and I went into the living room and my mum had told me my dad was cheating on her 😭 I burst into tears because I was a daddy’s girl. I loves my dad with all my heart and I trusted him so much. I hugged her and my three brothers. Soon after he came in and was getting ready to leave because my mum had kicked him out. he was asking us all for hugs because it was going to be our last time seeing him for over a year I said no 💔 I regret it because I loved him but I was so hurt! We moved back from England and down to wales where my mum found her new boyfriend. I didn’t like him one bit I just knew there was something off about him. So when I was in the living room I got really scared because the door had randomly shut when nobody was in there so I went to the kitchen where my mum and her boyfriend was and that’s when I saw it....
He was snogging my mum and throwing her up against the doors. I was disgusted by this because I hate watching people kiss I don’t know why I just do... and my mum had already been out through mental torture. She found out that he had also been cheating on her with not 1 but 2 women!! I knew it! He was so rude and didn’t even look at us kids. He just wanted to touch my mum. And to this day he is texting my mum saying he wants her back he never cheated we both know that’s not true.
Soon after I became depressed which led to anxiety. My teachers started to notice something was up but anytime they asked me I said I was fine
I keep telling them I’m fine and put a fake smile on. They believe it. I just want to tell someone but I’m too scared
My mum is with someone who treats her amazingly and I’m so thankful for that. I know that’s He’s good for my mum ☺️
Just sometimes it gets too hard for me to handle that I cry myself to sleep because I want my dad back. I want my mum to be happy. I don’t want my brothers to smoke weed I want to be a family again 💔😭
I’m sorry this isn’t based on sexual harassment I just wanted to tell my life story.
If you guys have read this to the end thank you so much. I really appreciate you.
Just know that your never alone. I never want you to feel like that. Have an amazing day you guys ❤️❤️
I remember when I was assaulted. By my cousin. Long story short I didn’t want to do something, and he got mad at me for it.
I tried to leave he pulled me down and i tried crawling away but he grabbed my ankle and
He hovered above me, pinned my arms down and groped me. He touched my face to my neck then my chest, and his hand moved slowly in circles against my private area. But I kneed him and ran downstairs to my mom and cried. I didn’t tell her what happened. I didn’t tell anyone. But he came downstairs moments later and tried to apologize to me. Telling me how sorry he was
And that he didn’t mean to hurt me.
And I regret to this day not going downstairs with them. I don’t know why I didn’t, but if I did then it wouldn’t have happened.
I just told my ma about 3 months ago what started happening in September of 2017 all the way till October 2017. Scariest thing of my life! I was scared but every passing day, I just continue to pray. It hurts all the time but, I just deal with it.
This is relatable on such a personal level for me. I was assaulted at school. The security footage didn't show any signs of intent, so I had to put up with being called a liar and a whore. I had therapy and my friends to help me, but I was so afraid. I was traumatized. This person was still around me throughout the entire process. Eventually, my case was dropped. We signed a contract so he couldn't talk to me and I couldn't talk to him. I was always terrified of him. I felt betrayed by my school and my administration. It seemed that no one would help me. That was 3 months ago. I just wanted anyone reading this to know that it does get better, not best, but better
I was at school when a cleaner pinned me to the wall and kissed me. That happened a year ago but when i was 8 years old a GIRL raped me. I haven't told anyone about this except you. I don't know what to do?i don't know what to say to my mom? Can you write some advice and something i should tell my mom! I am only 11!!! Please help!!
I’m late but thought I’d share my story bc idk I feel like this might be a good place... well started when I was in the little maybe around 8 I began to get molested by my uncle after a while I told my parents but my father said I just wanted attention a few years later my parents got separated and my father moved in with his brother another one of my uncles and his in laws well every time I would visit my father my uncle father in law would catch me alone around the house and kiss and touch me and eventually I stopped going and my parents often questioned why I finally cracked and told my mother but she really didn’t seem bothered so I felt so alone I became dependent on running off with my then friends after school and getting drunk or high and my mother cried often bc she was tired of me not answering her calls for hours and not knowing where I was well one day I decided to runaway I didn’t get very far and I woke up outside a Carl’s Junior sleeping on a bus stop where my shoes and phone where stolen and I walked a couple more miles to a mall I remember the feeling burning hot ground of on my feet and people staring at well this man came up to and asked some thing about if I was homeless and I told him I had run away so he invited me to his apartment where he lived with his mother and he snuck me into his room he questioned me and my age I told him I was sixteen and what not he proceeded to offer me alcohol and weed and me feeling so empty accepted the catch was I would allow him to touch my and he touch me as I layed there drunk and now getting high he insisted I stay but soon gave up after I convince him police was looking for me he gave me his number and some edibles I had him drop me off at random by high school about 2 miles from my house I walked to a park where I ate some of the edibles and flushed the rest in fear of getting caught and just walked home my mom didn’t really question what happened that night she was just angry when I got home but yeah I kinda got my act together despite of no one believing my I don’t drink or smoke so I no longer have my friends I spend a lot of time alone thinking I’m still 17 so I still live with my mother sometimes I just want to question if she ever believed me or cared and I kinda feel lost at the moment but I’m trying to figure myself and life out...
October 15, 2018 my ex boyfriend sexually harassed me and no one takes it seriously. No one believes me even though there is proof that he harassed me. I see him every day. His sister is friends with my best friend so he sits with us every day.
It doesn’t get any easier. My best friend started dating him and I broke down. She knew some of the story. No one knows the whole story yet. I’m not ready. It only happens less than a year ago. On what would’ve been our one year if we didn’t break up, his sis yet brought up the fact that I still liked him. Which wasn’t true. I couldn’t get him out of my head because he had another girlfriend and was doing stuff with her. And he would stare me down in the morning or after school. I don’t feel safe around him. Luckily my friend broke up with him after he tried stuff with her but the only people who know are my closest friends. Which is only two people. When I say there is proof I mean he was trying to pressure me into sending him pictures over email and trying to do stuff to me when we would be with each other. He’s a horrible guy. He’s not even out of high school yet and he’s done this to me and tried doing it to my best friend. Nothing has happened to him about it and I hate it. I can’t talk about it to anyone because everyone thinks I’m lying about it
At first I thought this was gonna be like one of those
“This is Pepsi not cole”
Oh sorry about that
Story time:I was poisoned
But it wasn’t I’m sorry for u and everyone else who suffered like this, hope u all have a good day and hope it never happens again or to anyone else
Just reading the comment section killed me I literally want to cry of how many story’s people have 😭 I luckily do not have a story but if this has happened to u then just remember u are strong and powerful and u will get through this! God put us all on this earth for a reason 💖🤞🏻
Reading the comments make me sorry for what happen to everyone be careful who you trust and remember your not alone😊
EDIT: I forgot to say I have a bf to he's nice but you have to wait when you invite him my parents hid in my closet to make sure I would be ok and we went to my room and everything was fine so than my parents had trusted him even though they hid in the closet a couple more times so to make sure he's the right fit make sure ur not home alone I had my family with me. 😊
So I've been putting this vide off for 2 years because I was too afraid to watch it but now I've finally plucked up the courage to tell the world my story.
I was 9 at the time, my parents divorced when I was two so I always lacked in the parent department which made my childhood very difficult hence the reason I still sucked my thumb and slept with a teddy bear.
We we're having this Christmas dinner and I excused myself since I was no longer hungry and just wanted to go upstairs and hold my teddy bear.
However, I made a stupid mistake by going downstairs to the living room where my cousin was on the phone talking to his now ex-girlfriend.
Me being the stupid idiot I was asked him if he would give me a piggyback ride, he ignored me and when I kept on insisting he hung up and ripped my bear out of my arms and sat on her.
My teddy bear was the only way out of reality and instead of going to my mum and asking her if she could tell me cousin to get off my bear I told him I would do anything if he would just give her back to me.
That turned out be the biggest mistake of my life and he forcefully kissed me, moving his hands down to my private area and touching them, eventually, he stopped and gave me my bear back and I ran back to my room and cried.
Over the next few years he continued to do the same acts until one day he raped me, I'd gotten my period around 4 months ago by then and I'd just started ovulating.
I kept it in for nearly a month, but when we started doing sex ed and they taught us about pregnancy and stuff like that, I felt sick to the stomach and ran out of the classroom and hid in the bathroom.
It wasn't until 10 minutes later that my teacher found me and she sat on the bathroom floor while I explained what happened.
The rest of my story was similars to Eva's, except the police took me to the hospital, I was checked for pregnancy but it came back negative, I couldn't bare to go to school for weeks, so my friends who lived close to me and were in the same classes would drop my homework off, I still haven't overcome what would've happened if I just went to my mum.
And just like Eva, they dropped my case, I'm now 14 and in high school, I still visit the school counsellor, and they always want to see the scars I gave myself during those few years.
And remember, it's not always girls that get raped
i told my mom. she told me to not go near him and acts like nothing happened around him. can't do anything about it cause he's a family member and even if i did i feel like the cops wouldn't believe me, i have no evidence. and i don't want to ruin my family.he will pay the price in hell.
I wanted to address something that pertains to most sexual assault stories. I myself have been sexually assaulted at 10 years old by a 20-year-old man, and when he was caught, people accused the victims in trying to ruin his career. What I don't understand is why the schools always, and I say ALMOST ALWAYS never takes disciplinary actions at least for the kid that sexually assaults. I had a friend who was sexually assaulted and I mean it was WITHOUT CONSENT, she said NO several times and very firmly, but it was clear that he didn't care at least for this case, sometimes guys think it's "teasing" or some idiotic shit, but I think they always tend to believe that girls are always trying to accuse the guys. It's not our fault that he sexually assaulted her but even his own mother accused her of "trying to ruin his life," this should be considered juvenile if not, worse than that, we're just allowing these criminals out to the world to commit even more crimes, and make them that this type of crime is fine.
Everyone experiencing sexual assault, you will feel scared. Don’t be afraid to tell your mom or dad. They are there for you the sooner the better. Think of it as medicine when your sick. You take the medication as soon as you feel sick and you will feel better take a couple of days weeks or months things can get out of hand. TAKE A STAND TO SEXUAL HARASSMENT OR ABUSE!!!
Good message Eva
So I had known this guy since i was like 9 and we had been really good friends. during middle school we started liking each other. At parties we'd be watching a movie and we'd cuddle. At one party we touched my butt when we were cuddling which I was okay with at the time because I liked him and he had asked if he could. About a year later we were going to go see a movie with some other friends. I no longer had a crush on him and he knew that. During the trailers he grabbed my hand and held it. I was okay with it kinda cause i though if i dont like him which i dont it didnt mean anything. But then he put his arm around me and started touching and squeezing my butt which i wasn't okay with. I didn't know what to do because i was in shock. Then he tried to touch my chest but i blocked him. I had no idea what to do I was very uncomfortable. Eventually i was able to get away by reaching over to grab my drink, but even after he still kept trying to make moves on me. I just felt really bad about it because I felt really uncomfortable and he was really mean to me the next day because I hadn't let him touch me. I realized that he only wanted me for my body and i felt so stupid. About a week later I was able to tell one of my other guy friends and I was happy that I was able to talk about it. But then he started telling me that it was my fault because I had led him on by leaning against him and holding his hand. I got really mad and said that just because i wanted to hold his hand didnt mean i wanted him to grab my ass. I still felt really stupid and I felt like everyone thought I was a slut. Especially since the next night I was hanging out with my guy friend (I hadn't told him at the time) and he put his arm around me and everyone saw including the guy who tried to touch me. Everyone gave me dirty looks and incinuated that i was premiscuous later. I just felt so shitty but I didn't want to talk about it cause I hate being dramatic and I knew people had gone through a lot more than I did. The guy who tried to touch me is very popular so I feel powerless at school especially since my guy friend broke my trust and Im pretty sure everyone in our class thinks im a slut. I just feel trapped at school and like I have no one to talk to.
This is the 12th time I've watched tis vid in 1 year I always thought of commenting but I didn't have the courage to I was raped at 4 years old I'm 10 now I love this vid my life has definitely gotten better Love you Ava💖💖💖
She was 5. Her sperm donor was probably high. Her mother was at work. She didnt know it was wrong because she played this game before... tons of times. And then she found out at 13 that maybe the game was a crime. And that crime broke her.
I'm sorry for you Eva and all the people that have to deal with this situation.
I just do not understand how there are people that enjoy hurting people physically and psychologically.
We all have to remember
NO MEANS NO
This is crazy. This happened exactly like it happened to my friend. She and I told our favorite teacher, and then she told the assistant principal, who told the police. She has had to go to police interviews and meeting with them since then. I don’t know how I can support her through this. What was even worse, was we had a horrible friend who told a bunch of people at our school about it. It then spread all over the school. Many people handled it ok. But ofc there is the people, who say that she still likes the guy, and that the thing made her like him more. But it’s the total opposite. We hate him, she hates him, everyone who knows what happened hates him. So yeah that’s the story
After reading those comments I'm not feeling that what happened to me was my fault.. I always blamed myself for being such an idiot how can I let something like that to happen to me. I still remember everything that happened and trying to get away from all those bad memories. Never wanted to talk about that to anyone thinking that everyone will think its my fault. It has broken me. I just started watching YouTube videos and think I'm kinda very late to comment on it but it's okay..and now I'm feeling that I can be happy again if I just don't think about it. It hurts but I think I'll be fine. There are many comments I can relate with.. Feeling a lil better after watching this video.. Cos now I know it wasn't my fault no one can blame me... #nomeansno #bebrave #eva❤️ #breva❤️❤️ #thestruggleisreal💙 #loveyourbookeva💜
My story is when I was about 10. I had a best friend (Lets call her Bella.) and Bella was very controlling I guess if I hanged around with anyone other than her she would get so angry. Anyway, I realised she was toxic and tried to stop being friends. One day in PE. I was getting changed and she was just staring I was thinking WTF. I just brushed it off then in PE she just randomly came up to me and started pushing my shoulders down really hard I swear they were almost bleeding. (I'm not really a physical person.) I mouthed to my friend (Lets call him Jack.) "SAVE ME." He just looked shocked. That is the first story. The second one is one day Bella, Me and my other friend (Lets call her Ellie she later became my girlfriend). We were playing tag (We were like 8 at the time.) And Bella randomly just runs around trying to kiss us (I know I'm lesbian but I got standards.) I just kept running away and then she got me and Ellie and was trying to pull our hair out or something! My head was bleeding at that moment. I was about to punch her but Ellie is like SPARE HER. We told a teacher and she got told off. She also said she liked me and tried forcing me to be her girlfriend. That's my story and no is no.
I was put in this group chat with 50 participants who were somehow known as the "cool kids in school". I stupidly didn't end up leaving because I felt so happy by the fact that I was a "cool kid". I got really popular and I thought nothing could go wrong. Then a few months ago I was at a sleepover with 3 of my friend who were also part of the "cool kids". While me and my best friend were looking at cute puppy pictures and screaming "aww cute", my other "friend" recorded it in a voice message. The message spread to the group chat and soon I started being called a "slut" and a "hoe" since it sounded like sexual noises. It seems to have broken down now but I still feel bad over and over when I remember it. #NoMeansNo #FakenessOverload
All these boys should be embarrassed. Girls aren’t objects. We are strong people who have feelings too. We should be waking up to a morning text saying “good morning beautiful” not “hey, you up? Wanna come f***” I mean, it’s messed up how boys treat girls. I know some boys are gentlemen’s, but I’m talking about the boys who treat girls like puppets. We are all human, we have feelings. We aren’t your s*x toys. Period.
this is my story. when I was ten years old I was sexually assaulted and harassed by someone that I had called a friend at the time. it was a minor case, but it still affected me. every day at school this girl pressured me to do things I didn't want to do. she touched in inappropriate places and kissed me on my mouth and neck. she even did this to me at my own home, at my birthday party. I could hardly look at myself in the mirror, I thought that it was my fault. i kept trying to tell her no, but she still didn't stop. I started having flashbacks last year. I've shared my story with my close friends, and with the people around me. I've had so much support and I'm incredibly thankful for that. my heart goes out to everyone who has endured anything like this.
I was raped two years ago (when I was 14) by an abusive ex. I recently came forward to administrators at my school about it, then went to the police. The police told me that "it sounds like everything was consensual" and he thought I was just jealous of my ex's new girlfriend. Even with all the girls that have come forward about their similar experiences with the same guy, no one believes us and nothing's getting done about it.
I was abused my whole childhood in what it's like to have no one beleive you you shoudlnt need prove for people to beleive you especially when you go to the police looking for help and they claim they cant do out
I was raped when I was 16, I didn’t say anything until a few months ago when I was almost 18. I felt so much shame about it...like it was my fault. I’d seen so many things where the victim would get turned into some sort of criminal, getting questioned and being treated horribly. I only ever told my mum but telling her felt like such a massive weight off my shoulders. I just want to protect my little sister from the same thing. Thank you for this, we’re not alone. 💚
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